“1. The Dream of Elie: Elie is far away and much missed.

In The Dream of Elie, I appear as a she-wolf, “breasts and all.” We were “intertwined.”

Elie is one of many people who has noted to me (outside of dreams) that I appear simultaneously as male and female. Are there two of me, in any given place, at any given time? My own dysphoria has rarely concerned itself with the presence of the features of my body, but by the absence of features which are innate to my understanding of the world. I am perplexed that we are not defined by more subtle characteristics - What is the meaning of my small, delicate, talented hands?”